Hi,
I can truely appreciate how you are feeling! My STBAH also told Be he had given me enough time to change my behavior, and in his eyes I was worthless! He said a lot of other things that are too painful too repeat. My AH thought he was always right about everything. There is no excuse for verbal abuse.
I'm glad you're back! I rely on this forums support, to give me support and validate that I'm not the crazy one!
You'll find, everyone's story on here is so similar, maybe different words or actions, but results in the same painful feelings!
Please, be true to yourself! And take care of yourself! You will get through this a much wiser person!!
Z