I just wanted to say thank you so much. I woke up this morning and I read all of these replies and I felt so overwhelmed with support from all of you.
He also messaged my mother again. She is also a nurse and has dealt with people with addictions through her work all of her life and she responded to him saying he needs help basically and that he will never see me again.
On the weekend I am going to collect the last of my belongings and give keys back to my landlord.
I cannot believe what I have gone through and I think I am in a deep shock still.
All of this support and my own strength are going to help me. I am just trying to look forward now.
I am just finding the most difficult thing for me is that it isn't like a "normal" breakup where I fall out of love, or they do. I still love this person but cannot be with them and I think that is going to be difficult to deal with as well as the trauma I have been through.
Thank you again and I will be reading these all the time.