Uh oh. Here comes the anger. This is my trigger. Mad I can't be like the moderates and just have a drink. Even more angry I'm going to have to work at this forever. Grrrrrr. This day has been a roller coaster of unfun. I know I should get away from tv (I'm not watching TV that embellishes drinking) but I can't focus on a book and I can't listen to music because it makes me really want a drink. I haven't called my mom in two weeks and can't fathom doing that either tonight. Law and order, tacos and milk it is.