hi lily - sorry, i don't have a lot to offer on ways to assuage the fear and anxiety you are dealing with. but i do know that in recovery the YEAR mark can bring up a lot of stuff.............unbidden.
like somebody set a timer for 365 days and it's about to go DING!
the world we live in is less safe all the time. in fact i JUST had a meeting with our Security Coordinator about giving a personal safety presentation to our group!!! as in he just left my office 15 minutes ago!!!! so you are not alone, your thoughts and feelings are ok!! if someone creeps you out, don't just dismiss it as being silly. (ha, Silly Lily!) trust your gut. i believe in giving crazy people a wide berth.
good to see you here!!!
