D122y,
I really appreciate your message, and those you have left me in the past. I was having very negatives thoughts about myself, letting myself lose those past few months sober. You're right, they're still there. I will continue to remind myself that I can't drop my guard again. I'm still so new to this but I know I want to remain sober, I have a very big year ahead and I need to be in the proper mind state.