Originally Posted by
Melissa1217 
Yes I know. Just trying to figure out how much suffering I'm in for.
I'm just obsessing. I always did. I had problems before I ever picked up a drink. I can't afford anymore counseling. Besides, here I don't put up the ******** facade. I've spent my whole life being able to pull off looking and acting "normal"
That's why fake it till you make it doesn't work for me.
I just want to feel better
Oh I get it. I did the same thing. I told my wife I was an alcoholic she didn't believe me. Seriously she didn't. I told my kids I quit drinking and they asked me why, so I'm an expert at faking it. It didn't work for me either.
I just said I'm done and didn't consider anything else. It surely sucked and 4 months in it's not perfect but I'm better now, by a mile, then before.
Yesterday I started a thread about anxiety I had for no reason. It sucked but here I am still standing, well sitting.