Yes I know. Just trying to figure out how much suffering I'm in for.
I'm just obsessing. I always did. I had problems before I ever picked up a drink. I can't afford anymore counseling. Besides, here I don't put up the ******** facade. I've spent my whole life being able to pull off looking and acting "normal"
That's why fake it till you make it doesn't work for me.
I just want to feel better