Why do I do this?
OCD, anxiety?
Im now coming off 5 days of binging. I can't cope,go and but a four pack of cheap light beer, binge one after the other, purge and start all over.
I just can't deal. My neighbor pushed every one of my buttons. I could feel the anger building. I started panicking, binged and absolutely ripped into her, telling she's f'ing annoying, she's triggering me, and to mind her own f'ing business. Then I cried.
I'm overwhelmed. All I want to do is pay my bills and have peace. It's like I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop.
The doctors office cancelled my appointment and rescheduled for the 16 th.
Why do I get hurt so easily. I'm so scared. I'm an adult and I'm so scared. Every lousy thing anyone had ever said comes back to me. I just want peace.
I'm afraid to relax because of memories.
Is this withdrawal?