Dear Mera:
Cry on my shoulder! Just tell me anything I can do to help you! I so much admired you for the account you wrote of your rehab experience. And I am so sorry that you are having trouble again now. I had a long and difficult struggle but finally got free of alcohol and have not had a drink in over 28 years. I think of it as like mountain climbing and the more companions you can get on the rope the better and safer it is. So if I can get on your rope along with others on SR please let us know anything we can do to make things better for you.
Your friend
Bill