Mera, you are an extremely kind person. Your kindness shines through in every single post you write.
You are also exceedingly sensitive. And you are much too hard on yourself, a lot of the time. Sometimes I will read a post of yours where you at last will show a flicker of kindness to yourself, but then your instinct is to withdraw it immediately. I feel sad when I see that happen.
Such a good person. So hard on yourself...
Take every good thing about your nature that people say to you here, and absolutely know these things are true.