An addict without a drug?
Tonight was the first time I've ever admitted I'm an addict. I went to the hospital and they gave me the choice of staying inpatient, or doing intensive outpatient. My dad called and urged me not to go to an inpatient facility. He and my stepmother say it could ruin my career. In the end I ended up choosing intensive outpatient. I'm not a danger to myself or others so I guess maybe I wouldn't qualify for inpatient anyway.
But my life is unmanageable. Every single piece of it is unmanageable. And I'm confused because it's like I'm addicted, but not to a drug. I'm just addicted, and sometimes alcohol fills the hole, sometimes drugs, or relationships or overwork. Like it's not an addiction to something, just an addiction, and the "to's" change. Does that make sense to anybody?