Holy **** Tops, I will keep you in my thoughts and vibes! Way to channel the positive in the face of adversity!
Obos, I've had those feelings too in getting sober and seeing what others around me have achieved in the meantime. Like all my negative feelings, I process them but don't live in them. We have one life and one shot. Lamenting about what I could have been will keep me sick. You're in the fight of your life and didn't quit. Keep it up! Also it's awesome you're active in competitive sports!
Mariah, I hope the rest and time to yourself is refreshing! I hope you enjoy the recipes as much as I do!
Freein, I hope the painting goes well!