Sober it does get better I promise you. It took me 30 years of drinking to get in the shape that I am in and it won't won't be 2 weeks to snap out of it for lack of better words. Unfortunately that is the way life goes. I have paused long enough in the past to realize it does get better. Feeling all of life outweighs the pain of this transition. We all must stay the course to get back to feeling all of what life offers good and bad.