good on ya for getting this far!
the 5th step doesn't have to be done with a sponsor. theres a lil sumthing in the bb about that.
how to proceed...hmmm... welp, id suggest praying for guidance on it.
i strongly suggest,though, doing a 5th with someone that understands and may even be able to point out character defects that weren't caught.
but think about this:
you opened up on a forum that God only knows how many people will read it.
so why fear sharing your 5th with 1 person?
im sorry to read your hate for society, but can understand. i had things said and done to me that had me hating the world. when i got sober, my sponsor pointed out i was hating the world because of a few sick people.