Cat,
Addiction doesn't go away easy.
I was going crazy at 3 months clean.
Each time you give in and drink, you reset.
The addiction gets deeper.
If you made it 4 days, you can quit w out any physical issues...imo.
If you keep drinking..at this point...you will get more and more depressed.
You have to suffer for a while...then it turns to discomfort...then you get peace.
Hang in there.
Thanks.