It helps me to take it one day at a time. I just have to get through today sober. It's awful that you don't have access to AA or mental health, but since you do have the internet, you can do a lot of reading and get a lot of help that way. Not as good, but it's something. Also, do you have any support from anyone? A family member or friend that you can tell that you are trying to get better and need some help? Who knows, you may be the one who starts AA in your town. I'm pretty sure you can read the Big Book online. If so, it talks some about people who have no face-to-face support and how they can find other drunks who need help and form a group together. Wouldn't that be awesome?