Noel, deciding to get sober, stop and never drink again is - to me - a big cliche. In fact it's a extended learning phase how to get sober dustomized four your personality and your life.
I, for instance, made the same experience as you described it, but it was a "REQUIRED" learning lesson, that I there is - once sober - no option for drinking again. I needed to experience that. So, that was part of my journey.
Maybe same for you?