What do you tell yourself when you KNOW it's your beast talking.
I have done a TON of reading here as well as done the crash course a few times on the RR website. I 100% agree with this method. For years I've been absolutely disgusted with myself for not being able to stop. I started drinking about 6 years ago after a nasty divorce. I believe that it was my choice when it started and for a while I could have stopped whenever I chose too. After a few years though I could not stop.
I could get 3-4 days in and would relapse. I've been to few meetings at AA, Smart, Celebrate recovery and to be honest I always felt out of place there. I was very uncomfortable and felt like I did not belong. If I'm honest, I never really gave meetings a chance because I didn't feel they were a right fit for me.
RR REALLY has clicked with me. I've felt like there are 2 people living in me. The one who would never chose to drink to excess and the one who simply could not/would not stop. I have done things while drunk that I would NEVER do normally. I've done things that have left me mortified, ashamed, humiliated yada, yada yada.
My question, when you know your AV is leading you to buy a bottle of vodka. You tell yourself this is not you, don't listen to this person. The battle of you'll regret it vs it will be ok. The AV that creeps into your head and stays there for the 15 minute drive solely to buy liquor. How do you stop that? What measures do you tell yourself or what do you do to quiet or shut the AV up?
I do ok and can firmly say I will NEVER drink again, but relapse after relapse after relapse proves differently. I am currently on day 5 and my AV is screaming. I guess I'm asking what do YOU do or tell yourself to tell it to shut the he(( up?? Five days ago I was 100% certain I'd never drink again. Now I don't trust myself.