Thanks Ken.
I hope I'm not coming across as picking apart AA.
There are a few things that bother me but I'm going to give it a try. And not a half way try.
Others have said they just did the steps. Fake it until you make it.
For me it helps to know there are others that had some things they didn't care for in the program and still it worked for them. that's one of the big things that brings me back.
I've gone to meetings and drank after. The meeting itself doesn't stop me from drinking. So it's onto starting the program.