Alex,
I relapsed so many times, so many times I can't count. In my opinion sobriety is very hard. It took me time to figure it out and know how to stay sober. I think it has to be learned like any other difficult task. I have a long way to go but the way I see it as long as we don't give up trying we will enevtually achieve our goal. You can do it just don't give up........please?