I am a 4th gen. alcy. I turned off my alcy bro (watched him die) and woke up in the same ICU bed years later- after dying 3 times from an induced coma (because of burns- booze accident)- to find out my alcy dad died when I was in that coma. My ((then) wife and 2 adult sons ran away from me at light speed from that moment. They needed to for their own sanity- because my insanity was just too overwhelming.
I am sad- I grieve, but I support their decision. I write this with some credibility as I am the first male (so far) to successfully 'get' sober (1 year) from my family in at least the last 60 years. Your safety, life and future means you need to look after you. I suggest you seek some clarification with professional help over your feelings.
Addiction sucks. My thoughts, empathy and support to you.
Logic is so easily overtaken by the heart. What do you think the future would hold for you? A poll does not cut it- you have to make the decision for yourself. You can control you, not him. Keep posting. pj