Becoming me
70 days sober today and I am so happy! 70 days ago I didn't know what happy felt like.
One of the best things I have gained is the freedom to be me.
I am an introvert, I enjoy time on my own and when I do socialize I prefer just a small intimate group. For years I tried to fit in with the extroverts, going out, parties, big groups, crowded events, late drunken nights. I had to have alcohol in order to do these things because I really didn't enjoy doing them. I did them because I thought I should.
In the end, I was a discontent introvert sitting at home alone getting drunk and telling myself I was living my life how I wanted to.
I am now able to be sober social and enjoy it, say no thank you to events I know I won't enjoy and happily spend time alone.
This is such a gift and I am grateful. Just wanted to share with you all.
xx Scruff