I know what you mean. I stopped for a couple years and went back at it for 3 years. Nothing could stop my but myself. I lost a girlfriend I met in that sober break too.
TBH with you if you feel like you want to party and risk losing a women or your license and end up in a ditch naked then you will take that risk. If you don't want to live that life then you just won't because you are sick of it.
I'm sick of it is why I quit again. I drank enough beer for 30 lifetimes, I hung up my nutcase card.
The right thing to do is quit messing with alcohol intentionally. Or you could wait until you hit rock bottom and hope that's enough to scare you straight. I suggest you do the wise thing and drop the bad habit.
People are getting rich off of making others drunk so let them find their money elsewhere. Spend your money on yourself for good things that help you and not for the bad. Who wants to pay for bad things anyways? That's kinda weird lol