I have decided that as we age, remembering things sometimes isn't as awesome as it was once... my memory sucks lately- maybe it's due to stress or aging or ? So maybe you can chalk the lack of recall up to the passage of time?
I think it is a cool testament to you that you don't have his amend making lunch stored away under lock and key in your mind like a badge of honor... it means that you're a compassionate and forgiving person (my spin on it)...
I used to cling to lots of false amends made by Xah bc I desperately needed to believe them and needed to hold on to his apologies, however insincere, to remind him of them when he next lied to me or hurt me...
So, maybe it is a sign of recovery to not have it all stored away in memory... or maybe Im just trying to rationalize my own crummy memory
