SueDenim,
You can turn your life and health around right now. I was almost your age when I got sober. I had done a lot of damage to my health and was worried it was irreversible. I put off seeing my doctor because he was also a close friend. I was just too embarrassed. But I'm glad I finally saw him. There was no judgement . Only love and help. In short time I reversed whatever liver damage I had done through sobriety, clean eating and exercise....and today I am healthier than I've ever been .
You can do this Sue.....Feel free to message anyone here if you need to .