Tinhair!
You were't ready to quit that time that's all. If you really want this, really , really want to wake up every morning and not have to check to see how much you drank the night before, ever again - then you'll do it.
Get back on your feet, and grab hold of anything and everything that will take you in the right direction. If you plan and organise your way - you'll find it's easier than you think. If you don't go prepared it'll be about as easy as crossing the atlantic on foot.
Come back and start discussing your plans. Imagine how good it'll be to have a totally sober Christmas. It's a wonderful feeling it really is.
Deg.