Hi there ! Welcome...this is a great place for info , talking and finding out about stuff...amongst folk who have all been there and don't judge. .. your story sounds similar to mine and I thought I could never make it stick, but now I'm on 48 days..... it can be done!!!
Personally I recommend reading books on recovery, lots of them on amazon.... talking a lot on here, asking all the questions s u want to know, reaching out when u need a helping hand, plus join the February 2017 thread in newcomers . Everyone there is quitting this month, they become your team and you look out for then as they look out for you...
Remember , your life will be better, it will. Read enough on here and you can see it....
Please keep talking! !! Tonnes of good wishes. ... x