Having another meltdown
I was feeling pretty good, snd then I went do the dishes, and when I got to the spoons I bugged out. I could smell the drugs cooking, and I...... I don't know what to say I just bugged out. i went for a walk, but know I am feeling crappy again, and I am scared. Right now I am at my moms. I came here to clean myself up. I am going home in 6 days and I am really worried I will go right back to running in the streets. I keep telling myself , if I keep up with the coke I will be dead soon. I am not old, but to old to be consuming coke till my heart feels like it is going to pop out of my chest. And doing it over and over, and not eating for days. I can't do it anymore. I can't stay here forever I have to go back home, but it is dangerous for me. I live alone and with no support I don't know if I ill be able to behave. Besides telling me to go to a meeting does anyone have any other advice? Meetings are OK, but they don't last for 24 hours!! HELP