Good to have you with us, Sportdeck. I'm glad you've made the big decision to change your life. Congrats on your 48 sober days. I love how positive you sound.
I drank almost 30 yrs. It had once been so much fun - but it turned into a nightmare of dependence & chaos. I, too, would have the intention of just having a few - but willpower never worked once for me. Then I started drinking to 'cure' my hangovers. This led to every day drinking in the end - with anxiety and misery through the roof. I'm so glad we don't live that way any more.