I kept drinking and kept getting worse.
I didn't have the option of detox or inpatient.
Until I made the firm and final decision I was done or dead,
I just kept digging myself a deeper hole and more illness, stress, and destruction.
This sounds like where you are or where you'll be shortly.
You can stop, but you haven't really made up your mind to do it at all cost yet,
no holds barred.
It seems impossible to do when you are there, but like Algorithm says, you have
to make that leap of faith there is something better than drinking yourself to death.
When you do, you will find your way out.
I really wish that for you Kailey.