Really difficult to keep track Badger! I seem to either have a few days of drinking but not to excess and then feeling guilty, or one night of excessive drinking that makes me feel guilty.
Making the decision to break my abstinence, and it really was a decision, seems to have just set off my cravings. I'm clearly fighting it though, which is why it's so sporadic I guess. I was in a really bad place when I was daily drinking, can't go back there.