1) The feeling in the pit of my stomach the next morning, knowing I did something stupid but can't remember what.
2) Hating myself
3) The stomachaches
4) Missing out on my kids
5) That awful red "mask" on my face (slowly fading! YAY!)
6) The panic when I wasn't sure there was enough alcohol left for the night
7) Rushing to sneak drinks when someone left the room
8) The constant lying
9) Not knowing how I got home the night before
10) Wasting my life away