Interesting. That led to a near panic attack! I started eating out of control, realised what I was doing. White knuckled for a while and am settling now.
That's what could have led me to relapse in the past. Not now though. Somehow I seem to have broken the back on the craving. Now I've got to allow myself to take risks and to deal with the consequences as I've been learning during my sober times.
I think I needed to wrap myself in a cocoon of no problems to solve for a few years to get here. Gotta be gentle with myself.
Thanks again.