Originally Posted by
Doug39 
No offense, but it sounds like you really don't want to quit drinking.
You have to really just be fed up with drinking and really want to stop the madness.
97 days ago I hit rock bottom and knew in my heart that I had to quit drinking or I was going to die and/or go insane.
This.
I was VERY sick when I quit (I am 341 days sober) and I was just DONE. Finally. I knew I had to choose an uncertain (sober) future over certain death by alcohol.
It took me awhile to get the physical effects evened out and I will always work on the mental and emotional - now I think about "emotional sobriety" and how I live my program, not simply about physical sobriety. That takes time.
A complete mental change about how you view alcohol in your life- can't be in it- and everything else was necessary for me to get to the wonderful life I have now and be able (choose! get to!) to have whatever is coming.
You can quit- if you want to. Everything really is better on this side- I'd trade my worst day sober for my "best" day drinking every single time.