Hopeful, I agree w/all those saying that you certainly DO deserve this help, equally as much as any other abuse survivor. During the time I was working thru my childhood SA issues, I used the free counseling of a local women's center and didn't struggle at all w/whether I "deserved" it. I had no insurance and there was simply no way I could have afforded to pay full price for a counselor/therapist.
If you continue to feel guilt or concern about being not as deserving as others might be, maybe you'd feel better if you plan a commitment at some point to giving back--a volunteer shift once a week/month or at a fundraiser, something of that sort. Maybe your mind would accept the help more easily if it's viewed as something that will be passed on, paid back? Having been the volunteer coordinator for a local race for a few years, I can tell you from experience that volunteers, especially committed, knowledgeable ones, are worth their weight in gold!