Gr- I can relate to treading water. Stuff does not happen by osmosis to'get better' for me. Hard work does not always give a rewarding pay off either. I just continually write stuff down- a non lethal bucket list. Some things I try (new stuff) some advice from counselling clicks. Same with AA/SMART. People say 'all you have to do is change your thinking and the world is yours!'.
I just keep trying and looking and thinking. The fact I am aware of treading water and actively trying to tackle it means I make slow progress.
Keep on, keeping on.