After struggling with alcoholism since my mid 20's I finally got something in my late 40's. I'd lost my family and had, again, nothing except a want to stop drinking.
I booked myself into a dry house and went to 3 meetings a day for 30 days. I then binged continuously for 6 months and then stopped. I drank again in about 2008 for one day and nothing since.
My kids and I get on well. I've rebuilt a reasonably meaningful life.
I've read what I wrote years ago and can't identify with it.
I think what's happening is that I'm angry and always have been and I've kept that and people away by a kind of dry factual honesty exterior that says nothing about the inner me.
That's how I've been doing the honesty bit of the program. Treading water.
What now?
