I understand. Everyday I would say - I'm not going to drink again but by 6 I was finishing work, going to my local shop and buying my usual 2 bottles of wine, not able to look the shop assistant in the eye, hating myself.
I had to change my routine, I took some sick days, I left my bank cards at home and I literally had £1 to put in for the 7th tradition when I attended meetings. I knew I had to do something, sobriety wasn't going to knock on my door and say....I'm here! I had to fight for it.
You can do it. You really can.
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