Back at day 1
I don't know how to do this. I've been trying to get past day one again for the last two weeks. Every day just keeps ending in the same repeat of the day before. I'm embarrassed to admit this.
I can't do AA. This would be so much easier if I could. Some bad things happened there when I was a teen and I just can't imagine being a part of that. What I am doing isn't working. Even from the inside, I can see it for the insanity that it is. I'm stuck on repeat again.
I feel broken and angry and lost right now. I don't have anyone to talk about this with.