Hi ioio
There's nothing in your posts that shocks me - you'll find a lot of us have done crazy stuff we regret.
I really believe we are better than the bad things we;ve done. You'll find support and understanding here
well i ve made a decision and i ll take my life away for good.i
does this mean you are still suicidal?
Please call a crisis line or ask someone for help if that's the case ok?
There are international crisis line numbers here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
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