thus is life, you enter a new era of decisions when pummeled with bad news, but remember, it can always get worse. Do you really want to throw away all that sober time and obtain some type of irreversible damage/pain to your body? Only then to completely regret that you didn't maintain your sobriety, hitting yourself on the head, telling yourself that you just made everything permanently worse.
Don't listen to that voice, it will reel you in and try to end you, sometimes your own brain works against you. You will regret it, if you drink now, you'll just feel sick/tired, that's exactly what will happen, you will feel depressed, your body is no longer used to that substance, don't fall for the trap.