I found that the worst part of my addiction was not the deceit to others that came with trying to constantly present myself (on FB and otherwise) as someone who really had their crap together, but the deceit to myself that followed. I got to the point where I didn't care about my own truth, I only cared what others believed. As long as my SO didn't think I was an alcoholic, I wasn't (or so I convinced myself). Trust me, letting go of the addiction is fantastic, but ridding yourself of all of lies that you are forced to live with is even better. Life does get better without alcohol. Spend a couple of hours on this site and you will find thousands of examples; conversely, you won't find a single example of someone in real recovery looking back and wishing they never took these steps. Good luck!