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Hello there,my name is Ioio and English isn't my first language.First of all what you gonna read maybe will shock you..I'm 30 yo and when i'm sober i am actually a ordinary person,but when i'm drunk or/and high i become another person.2 be short i'll present you the facts as a list(remember:i m mental healthy,done the tests a dosen times..)
-i ve been drinking and getting high since i was 14
-everytime since that date when i drink i get into trouble like:subway vandalise(grafitti),international drug traffic,bank credits with fale ids,i entered second in arhitecture College and dropped out 1st year cause i was deunk 24/7,lost about 30 well payed jobs because i was 2 fu*ked up to show up(even my tattoo business crashed because i was to drunk to remember when the client would have an app),lost my house because i didn t show up at the trial when my sister sued me for my half,got 3 wifes (lost all because i was a ****ng beast with theM.(all o these without legal repeecursions)
Well the last made me realise that i have problem and then the guilt for all the bad things i ve done came into play(depression-tried to suicide 3times(pills,pills and pills) the er doctors called me Rasputin cause i was still alive.all of this in past year(i isolated myself trying not to harm anybody).well i ve made a decision and i ll take my life away for good.i cam t carry all of these thimgs i ve done with me.anyway i quit alcohol a year a ago and i m just drinking like a beer a month or so.So i m asking your opinion.hope it will help.don t do the mistakes i ve done.sorry for the spelling mistakes also

Be blessed,