Unfortunately, nobody could get through to me to get me to be clean and sober or to be more optimistic about life, I had to reach the point of desperation where I wanted it myself.
I know now that God has been in me all along, sobriety and a program of recovery have given me the ability to have gratitude for much of what my life is now, but there are still times when I question and doubt.
As a parent, I've come to realize that the best thing I can do for my children is to lead by example, to be a Godly father and husband. The rest I turn over to God. It's difficult to watch my children choose destructive paths, but I know that the only way they will learn is by having consequences at times.