Teh,
Welcome. You can do it. I got clean med. Free 21 months ago.
I drank way harder that a 2 bottles of wine at times.
Ween off them meds asap, if you can..imo.
Get clean med free and u will truly be free.
It was hell for many months, but glad I got through it that way now.
Being sober is how we are built to live.
Drug are learned behaviors.
Unlearn them.
Thanks.