Kris - Congrats on 3 years sober. I hope you have a GOOD day.
I have to shake my head at the irrational belief that I could somehow escape alcoholism in a family where everyone either completely abstains or drinks to excess.
I used to see it as a badge of honor that people couldn't believe that I was up and functioning the morning after partying. I'm not nostalgic for those days at all. I'm glad I've found a fulfilling way of life as a sober person.
The way I was raised, being a have-not among my peers, with people around me having nice things and good fortune, and me not, made me think I didn't deserve it. As a sober adult, I've worked hard to understand that I do in fact deserve nice things and to have good things happen to me, and that it's incumbent upon me to take action to make it happen. Also that when bad things happen it's not my fault.
I'm in awe of how the universe has conspired to teach me what's eluded me all these years through life's recent incidents and accidents - even my husband's knocked out teeth.
Have a good one!