Another post from me, posting away while I have the chance to do that. Aaron is calm at the moment 😊.
I think my meds have started to kick in. Still depressed but my emotions feel a bit more in control now. I talked to my AH's best friend ( he was the one who notified me about my AH's death that horrid day months ago) a few days ago and we shared memories, hows and whys and cried together. We just feel so abandoned both of us and we can't really understand he's gone, what really happened and why we didn't get what was going on. It felt good to talk to him cuz he really understands me and knows the whole story ( not many people do as I had to cover eveything up to so many people). Also he was there in the apt the night my AH passed away. That same night I had a dream about my AH where he said he was sorry for everything. I think I dreamt about it because that was one of the things me and his best friend talked about that night.
Just venting/rambling as usual. Thanks for reading.
Sending you hugs