Originally Posted by
Arpeggioh 
... I'm always shocked at my continued survival... It's quite miraculous, really...
I had a rock hard constitution, which allowed me to drink and smoke insane amounts, compared to many others. My body would simply adapt and survive, as it were, but I wish I never had that blessing. These days, I am broken physically, and I am being tested, but all I want is to heal.
I regret abusing my body and mind for so long, while everything was still healthy. There were so many wasted years, which I know you can understand, Arpeggioh. Lately, I have this crazy inclination to "save" others from similar mistakes, which is not healthy for me, so I'll just leave you with your own words:
Over ten years on SR -
Originally Posted by
Arpeggioh My very supportive, patient (with me especially), worried Dad has always said:
Never Quit Quitting!
I will never simply surrender myself to an early, ugly death at the gripping hands of alcohol...not ever!
Take stronger action.