Arpeggioh,
That used to be me too. I ve often been the one man standing in the room, I d always have one more glass, one more line, one more pill, you name it.
Body always kept going fairly unharmed, but what I do realise now is I was a shadow of the person I can be and that it was all pure madness, that was going to kill me at some point.
You know you need to stop this, mate, I guarantee it will make you happier.
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