Not everyone works the steps to get sober. I'm a firm believer in 'whatever works, works' for anyone in recovery. For me personally, I was in & out of the AA basements for YEARS without working the steps. I'd always had a chip on my shoulder in regards to the program, and didn't really want to go 'too deep' into it. But I also kept relapsing...and I also knew that in order for sobriety to stick, I had to do something different this time. So I'm finally working the steps.
I'm not saying you should work the steps. You may find peace of mind and the support system you need in the AA rooms. The only advice I'd offer is to do something *different* than you've done in the past. If nothing changes, nothing changes.
Thoughts are with you, Mester. I know this is a tough time.